The title of this post says it all. Having survived domestic abuse myself I know all too well exactly what it looks like and feels like to become trapped inside and to know a living hell; the terror that the perpetrator deliberately imposes upon the ones they "love"
The scars that it imposes on ones' psyche from the repeated episodes of a spineless ex who had no backbone so in order to prove their manliness to themselves and others they always want to overpower their "woman" using force be it: phsyical, emotional or financial along with all of the lies upon lies to build their own story which is only a one way street to create a greater persona for themselves because now if people only know what really went on in the house when the doors close or in the car when you are at the mercy of the abuser it would display an entirely different picture of what the true story really is about the "abuser" and only when necessary which is pretty much all of the time even when they appear to being nice which is just a major cover up for the next vicious attack or major put-downs to try and build up their nebulous ego which by the way never really did exist.
Their display of bravado is just another illusion in that pea brain head that only gets in the way of ever reaching reality. Yes, women who have gone through this or are currently experiencing it know exactly what I am referring to; waiting for the other shoe to drop and hoping and praying that somehow it will end. The pain that never heals. It is a sad situation. And one that I am blessed and lucky to be rid. I thank God every day. And pray for the others that may be in the situation @ present. It is no easy thing to get out of.
And it is important to re-develop a personal identity separate from what happens with abusive situations and recognize the power to go forward is still within reach when you can find that place where nobody can ever touch or alter; that sacred self which is untouchable and an extension of Gods' everlasting beauty and love. The irony of abuse is that often times the abuser extracts energy from their behaviors as they pursue to disempower and destroy their victim. It is a powerful and destructive dynamics that are difficult to understand from the outside looking in. I never thought it would happen to me.
If you are being abused please reach out for help. You can be happy again.
God bless you.
